So many things struck me on a lonely midnight. I just needed some time to think about my final decision. Well, this is life. Typically.

Work - It's actually a place where i'm supposed to have fun with my friends and the customers. Lately, i realised that i'm having a lot of fun with the customers. But then, the people there are not as helpful as the past. They become ... So selfish that they have forgotten that we are in this together. Whatever they do have a huge impact on others. I hope to see some changes. The question; will there be any?

Family - I really hate the fact that they have swallowed so much of what i am supposed to have. I don't mind you guys taking back what you initially have, but the thing is, you guys are taking way more than you should be. If my Mum had helped my Great Grandma to nominate my name, would you guys even have a share of the legacy? And now that they have the share of the legacy, relatives are starting to sever ties among each other. I could see it coming. Well, once i have finished with my O levels, i make sure i move out and have a life that i have yearned for years. And you, don't you dare gobble my 20K. You better hand it out in 3 years time.

So what if you "claimed" to have done so much for our family? So what if you have got me my past N85 phone with a line? So what if you have forked out over 3K for my studies? Well, Mum had told me about everything that happened in the past and i'm the only person who knows about it, among all the children in our family. And when i say "our family", i meant your children and the cousins i have.

Mum has shown me all the debts she had cleared for you years ago when you owed those loan sharks. You are a downright letdown to me. To think i have shown you such great respect over the years. I have no issue about Mum clearing all those debts for you, but i have a really big issue, as big as a whale, when you took more than you are supposed to from the legacy that was actually meant for me. Who are you? You this useless jerk. Downright one.

I'm so damn tired hearing all these stuffs and having to see them is worst than piercing your heart with shattered glass. Having seen them smiling is the worst thing in life. The hypocritical smiles on their faces, man that is so damn awful.

In my life, so many things is going on and outsiders won't get to understand the growing pains. And this is why, i am so quiet when i'm supposed to be really happy. Just hope that my worst nightmare i have imagined do not come true. Everything seems okay for the time being? I hope so.