Do you know why am I acting so strong in front of everyone? Do you know why am I so childish in front of everyone? Do you really know why?

For the past 18 years, I don't least felt loved at all. I have been hurt emotional that acting on a brave front is my only choice. Where were you when I was hurt? Where were you when I needed support? Where were you when I was humiliated? My family was nowhere to be found. Even if I don't felt loved before, I never let that bothers me. Because I know they love me in some ways that I hated.

It's so hard to cry it out with my friends around. It sucks to bring them down too. I just got to keep moving on as the person with a brave front. I don't wish to be vulnerable because in life, people will cast you down to reach for their goal.

Thank you for your love. I feel you, somewhere, somehow...